Bummed.

I'm bummed....

My bf's not moving to London anymore.... room mate issues.... This bums me out comepletely. I just want to be close to him and he's staying a million miles away... I love him and I just want him to be by my side.

I was pumped for summer job at the X..... Then I got shafted and got scheduled for the one thing I asked not to be put in.... UGH! I hate FANSHAWE COLLEGE!

I lost my best friend..... She's not her anymore... she doesn't give a shit about anything in her life that includes me too... I called trying to vent the other night and she said she need to get her own life together so she didn't want to hear it

I lost some one that was like a mom.... Joan baby sat me from the time that I was 6 months old until I was about 12 she was the sweetest woman you could imagine, would've given the shirt off her back if some one needed it... she became like a mom to me over the years and passed away two weeks ago of Cancer... it's just finally sinkin in now...

I can't handle things the way I used too... I'm overwhelmed and feel like I can't get away from it... I put a smile on my face and walk around happy so people don't ask questions but I'm hurting, I just want to break down and cry and never pick myself back up.

It's almost over

Well it's almost over.... there's only a week and a half left of school... that's great cause I'm almost done, but shitty cause I only have a week and a half to catch up completely and get this year done... It definately hasn't been easy but I've been doing my best and hopefully that will be enough...

I'm gonna work at the school over the summer... I'm pretty excited about that... we run the school radio station, so I'm workin in radio which is sweet...

I move May 1st... I'm only moving 2 doors down from the house I'm already in so that's awesome haha... it's gonna be the easiest move I've ever had to do haha... I get the whole basement to myself and I'll live with girls now, so I'm pretty excited!....

This weekend is awards night for my school... Jake's coming with me, we get a dinner there and then it's off to the bar for some good drunken times in my dress! woop wooP! Im not eligable for any awards though because I have been so sick..so that sucks! but I understand...

either way I'm gonna get headin to school... BOO! haha... got lots stuff to get done so I'm outta here!!