Saturday, April 24, 2010

Life is gooooood

I'm having a bit of an off night... Had a great time with Stephie tonight watching pitsburg send the sens golfing :) Don't like pitsburg but hate the sens MUCH more lol..

But I lay here getting ready to hit sleep cause I have to work tomorrow and I miss my bf... and part of me still somewhere wonders if he's really up to what he tells me he is... the good thing is most of me KNOWS he's where he says he is... just somewhere deep in there there's still a little voice that doesn't want to let me forget the things that have happened and the pain I have felt... it's time for me to figure out how to move forward.

He told me the other night he fully trusts me again and that's HUGE for me... and great news :) means that I'm proving through my actions the way I want to be and that makes me happy... I have changed a lot but still remain the girl for him and I know in my heart he's the one for me.. just gotta keep goin with the flow ... time really is a huge factor in the way things happen and heal.

The more I think the more I realise every relationship is all about growth... it isn't the good times that show us where our relationships stand but rather the bad times that force us to prove to eachother that we truely want to be a part of the relationship. It's the tests that prove it's good bad or ugly...

Jake and I have come through so much... if we keep trying and continue to allow ourselves to love eachother I think we'll be just fine :)

hmm... time for sleep now..

Thursday, April 1, 2010

5 million years much?

holy it'a been forever! time for an update!!!

Well I FINALLY got a job!!! I'm the new promotions assistant for 2 stations in my area :) very very exciting stuff!!! it's not a lot of hours yet which isn't so nice on the pay check but it will pick up as the weather gets warmer ... Basically as a promotions assistant my job is to set up speakers and signs and hang out and hand out free stuff and meet people.... it's perfectly suited for me and I LOVE it! :) :)

Jake and I are doing well right now... it's been 3 months that we've been back together in a couple days... definately doesn't feel that long... probably because it wasn't until just a couple weeks ago that he actually started acting like he gave a shit again... we had a lot of ups and downs the first while but he's coming around again... let's hope this time it's for good.

Steph and Jenn and I hung out last night :) it was a lot of fun ... oooo how I love those girls.. Jenn wasn't feeling well though so she went home early.. then steph and I watched the original Alice in Wonderland... Great movie!!

Britt and I aren't talking.. probably won't be for a long time.. she's just been really shady and I don't have the time or energy for it with everything else that's happening in my life.

Life in general-
Is pretty good... I love my job... I love my bf... and I Absolutely love my friends... I can't really ask for much more... well bye for now :)