rainy days always get me down... I used to love them but lately they just make me sad... it's been rainy all week : (
I feel wierd lately... kinda outta place... not sure where I fit with things anymore.
Jake says he's not angry anymore... now he's just contemplating wheather he could do long distance with me after I cheated... so I guess he just assumes I'm willing to get back together?
I don't know what I'll do. I miss him, but I can't decide if he can truely let this go.
ugh I just wish I didn't care about it anymore. Wish it was just done cause this is one of the hardest things I've ever dealt with and I want it to stop hurting.