I'm not gonna say I came out here to run, that's just not true. It was easier to be here though then it was to be at home.
Nothing harbored sad or negative feelings... everything was new, exciting, full of fun, and opportunity.
Now I feel like I've just made the same mistakes here that I have everywhere and I'm frustrated with myself.
Frustrated because I feel like I can't win.
No matter how hard I try to change I just do the same things over and over... am I really this stupid!?!
I'm happy in pretty much every aspect of my life, except for where I'm at when it comes to dealing with feelings for people.
I need to learn to stay reserved. I need to learn not to let myself get invested. SOMEHOW I need to learn to stay gaurded and cautious. No more jumping in 100%... no more putting my heart into it fully.. no more being young and naiive.
I can do this.
I will do this.