Well it's thanks giving and here I sit in my apartment boxes all around me...
Part of me is sad... sad that I'm not with my family drinking wine and eating turkey till I pass out... sad that my apartment is half way to being packed up and that means my time here in the city where I had my first job is done.... sad that my last day of work at the station is tomorrow....
my god how time has flown by.
and part of me is happy.... happy that I completed my job here.. happy that I have improved my skills in radio... happy that I chose to come out here and stuck to my guns and did it...
And the rest of me is excited... excited for change... excited to be back home for a while where I feel whole again... excited for florida and the fun that it will bring for the month and a bit that I'm there...
There's a lot running through me right now... I'm sure that I'll shed a few tears tomorrow... I'm really gonna miss everyone... I'm gonna miss Brett's smart ass sense of humor... Court's loud laughter boomin through the halls.. and of course Blair's undying "awwwwkwarrrrrddd" statements lol.. it's been quite the ride... it's all happened for many reasons and being here has taught me a lot about myself... :)
Jake and I are still talkin... tryin to sort things out.. we were gonna hang out today but I'm wayyyy too tired after being out for most of the night last night and he was too so we're gonna go rollerblading on wednesday instead... it's wierd to get used to being Ella the friend instead of Ella the girlfriend but I think that we can get past this and at least have a friendship out of it... even though I would like to see more then that happen... we have a long way to go and a lot of work to do but I think we could be ok if we both work at it..
I found out today that I woman I'm really close with in my home town ... I used to work with her at the hardware store... her daughter passed away this morning :( She was autistic and had down syndrome so had a lot of health problems... I'm glad she's not suffering anymore but poor M is so sad and I'm so sad too.. the funeral's on thursday so wish me luck!
more another time xoxo
2 comments:
aw hunny. New beginnings are good!!!
So you do think you and jake could be friends???
I know new begginings are good :) but it's still sad to say good bye
I think we could.. but I don't think I'm strong enough to be just his friend... I just hope that in time (a lot of time) we can work it out and start over.
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